My Nan Is Dying Of Cancer, And I Don’t Know How To Deal With The Grief.?
i just found out today that my nan has lung cancer, and the cancer has spread to the brain and stomach. she is very frail and 78 years old, so age isn’t on her side, and everyone is pretty sure that she won’t live through it. i’ve never lost anyone close before, no close family members, not even any friends or pets. i really don’t know how to cope with losing her as she lives across the road from me and am so used to seeing her every day, we used to argue so much because we are very similar in character and i regret all the things i ever said and thought and thinking about it now upsets me greatly. she’s currently in hospital and i feel so guilty whenever i leave her because i want to spend as much time with her as possible. i can’t stop thinking of all the arguments we’ve had over such pointless things, or all the times i didn’t see her when i could have done. i will miss her so much, i love her unconditionally and the thought of living without her is horrible. im sorry i’ve gone on for so long about this.. thank you